oh simple things

Had a dance around the flat today - and singing. Such a beautiful day - sunny, crisp, blue.
And my nights, they're filling with beautiful things now too. People, ideas, music....each on their own and together; making me laugh; making me excited; inspired. That feeling of possibility - that opportunity really does exist everywhere once you stop to recognise it and when you're not afraid of it.

I could have gone for that job. I could have walked all over it and had security. But I've torn up the application form. Who am I kidding? Security? Shackles? What is the point if not to be moved, at every inch of myself. I've always wanted so much for myself, always dreamed about some halcyon life - and yet always been afraid to take the opportunities that come my way. Too careful, too much in control and everything so contrivied and orientated. And yet that is the fallacy of it all - it is all just struggling and resisting, wasting energy trying to cling onto my rock against the currents.

Now I am letting go of my rock - slowly at first, but I am going to relent, and let the currents take me...

i am more than now